WHOOSH

Tomorrow's our first quarterly exams and blogging is really the best way to review *insert sarcastic tone*. I can't believe how fast time flies. Whoosh. After this coming Thursday 7xi only has 3 meaningful (hopefully) quarters to spend in Rural High. Whoosh. Sometimes I still can't believe that I'm a Senior already. It seems like I was only a nervous Freshman yesterday but now I'm a confident Senior. LOL. Whoosh. In a few months comes our graduation and that will officially announce that my high school life is over. Whoosh.

5 Minutes To Midnight

I'm not sure if that's the correct title of the song by Boys Like Girls but the name is not the point. LOL. Anyway, today while waiting for the dance rehearsals to begin my bff and I were listening to random songs from her cellphone and then 'Five Minutes to Midnight' played and I remembered my very close friend whose in Japan right now. I think I first heard this song from her and I remember her singing this when we're hanging out. I was teary eyed when we listened to this song because I really miss Erin so much (as in MUCH). Hope you're doing well in Japan Erin! :)

Foundation Day

I am so damn tired with all the dancing and repeating of everything. Gawd. Being Senior students we shouldn't be that worried about winning this dance competition but I am so worried. First, because the other batches have professional choreographers training them while we have Glenn, a very dedicated batchmate, training us. Second, the lower batches (especially the Freshies and Sophies) have all the time in the world to rehearse. Our schedule is so hectic and to top it all off we have UPCAT to worry about. Talk about busy. Anyway, this dance competition is on Friday and we're not yet a 100% ready. To be honest I think that the lower batches can beat us but I'm still trying to think positive. If ever we lose this competition we'll make sure that we'll dominate Intrams and leave Rural High with a huge BANG. {I hope we'll win this street dance thingy}

I have no idea who I am. I always lie to myself saying that I know who I am and I know what I want and I know who I wanna be but as I said they're just lies. I have no idea where my life is heading. I have no idea of what's to come. Of what's going to happen to me. Honestly, I think I'm a failure, a huge failure. I don't even believe in myself. I lie to everyone saying that I'm okay when I never was okay. I don't know happiness. I don't know love. All I know is this feeling of being empty and being lonely. My life sucks and I don't know what to do about it.

Sheesh

People always blame me when something goes wrong in this house. I just told her to sweep the floor and then she gets mad. What the hell right?! And then she reacts badly so mom notices that something's wrong. And then my mom gets mad at me. Why me? I asked her nicely to sweep the damn floor. What is wrong with that! I've been cleaning this house since Saturday and I just need help now. She sweeps and then I wipe the floor. Why did she have to make a big deal out of that. Anyway, I dunno if I'm making sense anymore because I can't even understand what I wrote. Haha. Tata for now.

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I'm writing a story and I really want to finish this story. It's about love and finding yourself and your place in the world. It's also about the choices you make and discovering who will be your friends forever. I got inspired to write a story because of my favorite volleyball player and because of Glee.

Random Thoughts

I really missed going to school and I'm glad for the review because I can see my friends everyday and i won't be bored at home. During the day my focus is studying but during the night I'll watch Glee and Gossip Girl and enjoy summer. This is going to be a fun month, learning how to balance studies and obsessions with studies coming first of course. I'm really going to improve this coming school year. I'm going to make the people I love proud of me.