Random

I've been so into k-pop lately that I've forgotten how much fun it is to go outside. Last Sunday my NASC3 class went to Enchanted Kingdom to shoot our music video, which is a class requirement, and to have fun. Frankly, I first thought that I wouldn't enjoy the trip because I have no HS batchmate from my class but I was wrong because I had tons of fun. From the time when we were shooting our MV and to the moment when we were already allowed to enjoy the theme park by ourselves I was happy. I guess being with some upperclass students made me enjoy the trip since Ate Lara, Ate Arnie, and Ate Ella treated me like their little sister.

Would you remember me?

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

The title is totally irrelevant to my post. It so happens that I'm listening to the song "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang" right now so I decided to entitle my post to it. Anyway, I'm a little bit confused lately. As you all know I'm currently writing a love story and even though I'm not yet half way through with it I already have a certain ending to it in my mind. The problem is after watching a couple of tearjerker Korean movies I'm having second thoughts about how I should end my story. Kill the girl? Give her amnesia maybe? My original ending is to actually kill my protagonist because, as weird as it is, I love tragic endings but now I'm really having these second thoughts. Somehow I still want a sad ending but I'm thinking if I should still kill my protagonist.

Okay. It goes like this: The girl moves to America because she wants to find cure for her disease. She leaves her country without telling her friends nor her boyfriend. She will be gone for three years and will only return to her country because, apparently, her illness is incurable and she will die soon. When she returns she will opt not to tell anyone about her impending death or her reason for leaving three years ago. Of course her friends and the one she loves will notice some changes in her but she will always brush off their comments. Blah Blah Blah. Then one day, while the girl is hanging out with her friends she will lose consciousness then she'll be taken to the hospital and BOOM the revelation will happen. Tears will be shed, confessions will be made, etc.. The girl's one true love will be heartbroken but will accept everything because the girl will ask that from him and instead of being sad until the girl dies, One True Love will do everything so that his girl will be happy in her remaining days in the world. He will celebrate both of their birthdays early and also Christmas and Valentines day. He's doing that because he knows that he won't be able to celebrate these events on their real dates thus they'll just celebrate early. Blah Blah Blah. Then the girl will die on the beach while on the back of her True Love. Etc Etc Etc. The epilogue will be seven years later where a letter will be sent to Mr. One True Love and the girl's other friends. The letter was written while the girl is in America and on the letter the girl tells her friends the WHOLE truth (yeah. i know there was already a revelation but i really want to do this). Everyone will cry because the girl's most treasured memories are written in the letter. Even those events that people are most likely to forget. (Note: the letter is relevant because the girl's sickness involves slight memory loss and because she was afraid that all her precious memories will disappear she writes them in a letter).

So that was my original ending but it's constantly being altered. Like for example her True Love having a girlfriend when she returns or all her friends pretending not to know she's sick for her sake. Anyway, my entry ends here. This is just a random thing and if you don't want to read it you don't have to.

Another love story

Letting her go is probably the best thing to do. He made her suffer for a long time anyway and he broke his promise: he left her alone. He thought hard about their situation. His girlfriend was left alone for two years because he was on coma and wouldn't wake up. During those two years she was loyal to him. She never lost hope that he'll recover even if his other friends already gave up on him. She always stayed by his side. But when he woke up there was another guy. A guy who was head over heels in love with his girlfriend. A guy who was begging him to let the girl he loves go. He got angry at that guy. Who does he think he is anyway? But he saw that his girlfriend was concerned with that stupid guy. Maybe she was in love with him too. He was probably the one who stayed by her side when he didn't...the one who made her smile when he couldn't...the one who was there.

He had no idea on what was going on in his girlfriend's mind. Is she just staying with him because she loves him or because she pities him since his family abandoned him? One night he asked her who she would save if they were drowning: him or the other guy? His girlfriend replied: IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOU. IF I HAVE TO CHOOSE FROM HIM OR YOU THE ANSWER WOULD BE YOU. IF I HAVE TO CHOOSE BETWEEN THE WHOLE WORLD AND YOU IT WILL STILL BE YOU. He knew that his girlfriend was telling the truth and it made him feel relieved.

Untitled

Since this is my blog I think it's only write that I post entries that describe me. Right now I'm a writer in a 'writer's block' because I can't write anything decent these days. So many stories pop in to my mind and while I'm thinking about plots and characters I really feel that it's going to be a good story but the problem is when I try to put my story into words on paper my mind goes blank. I can't write decent introductions, I can't describe my characters properly, and sometimes I find my stories going absolutely nowhere. I don't know how writers like J.K Rowling can write novels with hundreds of pages. They must have a huge imagination and a lot of paper and patience while writing. I'm a really impatient person. Right now, while I'm writing this I think that my writing sucks because I find it hard to organize ideas.

Now that I'm thinking about it, I think that I'm an awful writer. I envy my friend who can write smoothly and use extravagant words. I find it hard doing those kind of things. I think that my term paper is crap, my essays suck, my ideas are rotten, and my thoughts are messy. Okay, I'm going to stop belittling myself now.

Sea Eugene Shoo

Take out the first letters of their name and it'll form the name of their group. I'm not going to say that I'm their avid and loyal fan since I only found out about them recently but I am going to say that I'm a fan. I'm not really a fan of kPop. I actually hated them so much before because I don't like music that I don't understand and I definitely don't understand Korean. Anyway, I became a fan of this girl group at first because I'm a fan of Eugene, a Korean actress. Naturally I went on researching about her and I found out that during her teen years she was a member of a famous Korean 'idol' group. After that I went on researching about this certain girl group. I tried listening to their music and instantly became a fan so now I'm listening to them.

I don't really know why I'm posting about this but I just wanted to say that it's the first time I became a fan of a Korean 'idol' group. :D

Second Best

I don't really know why but lately, when I watch Korean dramas, I always fall for the second guy. The guy I know that will not get the girl. I recently finished watching Mary Stayed Out All Night and at first I like Mae-ri and Moo Gyul together because they look so cute together. Of course, from the beginning of the story the viewers could already guess that Moo Gyul will end up with Mae-ri in the end. Then Jung In entered the scene and even though he was a cold and emotionless person at the beginning he changed. He loved Mae-ri and even protected her no matter what. But still it is Moo Gyul who Mae-ri loves so Jung In let her go and they just became friends or oppa and dosaeng. Frankly, the outcome of the love story was predictable but while I was watching I kept hoping for a twist in the story that could make Mae-ri and Jung In be together but then again that was just me.

Then in Save the Last Dance for Me I really wanted Eun-soo to choose Tae-min. That scene in the train station got me screaming in my head. Anyway, I really got mad at Hyung-so when he forgot about Eun-soo and ran off after their engagement. Curse him for that. But Tae-min became friends with Eun-soo and even helped her get a job. He changed just for her but in the end he's still the bad guy but he also changed. Still, if only Eun-soo just chose him from the start then everything would've been okay. I loved the part where Tae-min tried roller skating even though he doesn't know how (he's not very athletic but is good in academics) just to make Eun-soo smile.

Love, Bread, and Dreams was not disappointing for me. Haha. The second guy gets the girl. Even though Ma Jun and Yu Kyung seemed like an evil pair (is that you Blair and Chuck) their unusual love story made me love them more than Kim Tak Gu. I have to admit that at first it was heartbreaking when Yu Kyung chose Ma Jun over Tak Gu just to have her revenge on Ma Jun's mother. Also, at first, Ma Jun wanted to be with Yu Kyung because he wants revenge over Tak Gu. But as the series progresses Ma Jun really fell in love with Yu Kyung. There was a time when Ma Jun's mom told him to break up with Yu Kyung because he already won. She knew that Ma Jun was just pissing her off, blah blah blah. But Ma Jun doesn't want to oblige to her wish because according to Ma Jun he can't live without Yu Kyung. He feels like he's dying when she's (Yu Kyung) not by his side. Blah blah blah. Then during the last episode he finally told Yu Kyung that he loves her. I guess she loves him too though it wasn't mentioned but the fact that they're married and plans to travel the world together must mean that they love each other.

There are many other dramas where I often prefer the second guy over the main guy because they are more charming. I guess it's because I know how it feels to be second best.

whatever.unfair.random stupidity.

Life freakin' sucks. Just stole a line from Santana Lopez. What can I say, it's true anyway. I hate how my feelings are being pushed aside right now. FYI, I exist. I don't know why some people treat me like crap as if I don't matter. I mean, I'm the older sister here, no one else. I know we have another older brother which kinda makes my older brother the second older brother but I'm always the older sister. I should at least have some respect from younger siblings and even older siblings. It's hard to be me. I have to cover up for big brother, I have to give way to little sister, etc.. Everything always comes down to me and they won't eve let me cut some slack. Sheesh

Hypocrite much

Yep. I'm a hypocrite. Not ashamed about it. Everyone's a hypocrite these days. Why am I a hypocrite? Because I'm listening to Kpop now. Haha. Who would've thought. But it's old Kpop that I'm listening to. I still don't like Super Junior or Girl's Generation or Wonder Girls or 2ne1 or whatever. And I'm just listening to SES songs because of Eugene Kim, the Korean actress. Nonetheless, I'm definitely a hypocrite.

Random mess

It's been a long time since I posted in this blog. Frankly, I got nothing to say because my mind's pretty messed up right now. With graduation up ahead and then college right after I'm quite excited but terrified at the same time.