Chitty Chitty Bang Bang

The title is totally irrelevant to my post. It so happens that I'm listening to the song "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang" right now so I decided to entitle my post to it. Anyway, I'm a little bit confused lately. As you all know I'm currently writing a love story and even though I'm not yet half way through with it I already have a certain ending to it in my mind. The problem is after watching a couple of tearjerker Korean movies I'm having second thoughts about how I should end my story. Kill the girl? Give her amnesia maybe? My original ending is to actually kill my protagonist because, as weird as it is, I love tragic endings but now I'm really having these second thoughts. Somehow I still want a sad ending but I'm thinking if I should still kill my protagonist.

Okay. It goes like this: The girl moves to America because she wants to find cure for her disease. She leaves her country without telling her friends nor her boyfriend. She will be gone for three years and will only return to her country because, apparently, her illness is incurable and she will die soon. When she returns she will opt not to tell anyone about her impending death or her reason for leaving three years ago. Of course her friends and the one she loves will notice some changes in her but she will always brush off their comments. Blah Blah Blah. Then one day, while the girl is hanging out with her friends she will lose consciousness then she'll be taken to the hospital and BOOM the revelation will happen. Tears will be shed, confessions will be made, etc.. The girl's one true love will be heartbroken but will accept everything because the girl will ask that from him and instead of being sad until the girl dies, One True Love will do everything so that his girl will be happy in her remaining days in the world. He will celebrate both of their birthdays early and also Christmas and Valentines day. He's doing that because he knows that he won't be able to celebrate these events on their real dates thus they'll just celebrate early. Blah Blah Blah. Then the girl will die on the beach while on the back of her True Love. Etc Etc Etc. The epilogue will be seven years later where a letter will be sent to Mr. One True Love and the girl's other friends. The letter was written while the girl is in America and on the letter the girl tells her friends the WHOLE truth (yeah. i know there was already a revelation but i really want to do this). Everyone will cry because the girl's most treasured memories are written in the letter. Even those events that people are most likely to forget. (Note: the letter is relevant because the girl's sickness involves slight memory loss and because she was afraid that all her precious memories will disappear she writes them in a letter).

So that was my original ending but it's constantly being altered. Like for example her True Love having a girlfriend when she returns or all her friends pretending not to know she's sick for her sake. Anyway, my entry ends here. This is just a random thing and if you don't want to read it you don't have to.